d.e.c.i.s.i.o.n

hard.

to make a decision is too hard for me. could you imagine it, when you must choose between your bigest dream and your parents want.

i didnt know what should i choose

i  really want to chase my dreams but i also dont want to make my parent disappointed.

the older you get, many decisions to be chosen.

*sigh*

i just want to back to my childhood

i just want to back where my life seems more better than now

nowadays, seems like a dooms day for me

and the most painful is I'M ALONE. yes, alone.

i feel so alone to face these horrible things

sounds so pathetic, huh?

a lonely girl with many horrible things 

this world is like a devil. 

(i feel like i didnt know what i just wrote ._.)

turning 18th!!

23rd of May 2012..

WOW!! i'm turning 18th! became older ==" (that's the first thought when im awake that day)

as always, i'm awake in the morning to goto the atlas, gym!! kkk~

when i'm in yoga class, my phone got silent and there was something weird! my friends (ben,nella,nancy) and my mom called me. i got 11 missed calls..

then i called back my mom, and she says elisa was called her at house (and the real nella was calling ._.) i feel something weird then i quickly goto home!! and nella called me when i were in taxi ontheway home.. she didnt hear that i was otw home, she thought i were still at atlas! so she and nancy waited for me at atlas for a several minutes to give me a present(wow so cute :3).. but exactly I just arrived at home that time.. so we didn't meet at all.... (I'm really sorry for that guys:()

after tat i never thoght that we would meet again cause in the evening i hang out with melda,ote and kaspe...

But Suddenly..... THEY CAME TO MY HOUSE!! and it really surprised me! (jeffry was coorperated with them, huh --") 

first, they told me to blow the candle ( tapi gada lilinnya disuru pura-pura hahaha lol!! =DD)

and then the cake was already at my face ugh(awas kamu nguuu wkwkwk) setealh itu pun semua langsung nyiram dengan bahan-bahanyang ada, kecap asin, telor, body lotion, minyak goreng, tepung kanji... so njijikiii :&

and this is the photo...

SUPER THANKS TO MY BELOVEDE BEST FRIENDS!!!

nancy,elisa,nella,nguxe,ben,jeffry!!

and they also gives me an adorable present! 

leopard dress and leopard heels!!

SUPERB THANKS AGAIN REMPONGERS!!

Love love and  love you all!! <3

After that i got with my girls to sutos!

and i got a surprised to from them!!

Thanks for the cakes, thanks for the "kejahilannya"

they made me rewindd the same action last year!

minta selamet dari orang-orang di sutos dengan dandanan dikuncir-kuncir di coretcoret +KEPLEK

omona~

REALLY  A GREAT BIRTHDAY, A BLAST BIRTHDAY

THANKYOU ALL

THANKYOU FOR MY BESTIES

THANKYOU FOR REMPONGERS
THANKYOU FOR MELdA PE OTE

LOVE YA GUYS!! <3

*smooch and hugs*

you really made my day :')

hola!

after a long time, yeah finally i'm back!! B)
the mood for blogging just back a few days ago
i really want to share about my feelingsat all
miss to writing.....